“There is always Hope after Loss. Hope led me to Love and Love Never Fails.” – Lindsay Marie
Finding joy doesn’t come after the storm is over, it comes along the way. It has taken me years to understand this and I am still growing and learning. My life has been at a standstill up until this point and when I made the decision to choose happiness, my life began to swirl all around me. It was chaotic at first; then the flashbacks came, more anger bubbling up and negative thoughts kept me unbalanced. I remember thinking, this is NOT what I intended when I decided to live my life differently. This is NOT what I thought choosing to live joyfully was all about.
When my son died, my heart broke but he took it with him to Heaven. He has held onto it, fostered it, loved it and has been sending it back to me. He works his beautiful magic of reintroducing me to what Love really is. Day by day he shows me what choosing joy really entails.
It entails surrendering to Love and allowing it to lead in my life. At the same time, all of the past traumas and memories don’t go away, but are embraced in the Love that comes from God.
“In Love’s continuous embrace, my heart bursts with happiness.”
It is an ongoing journey of consciously choosing to allow that place inside of you where joy resides to stand strong within the battle of negativity that continues to challenge me as I walk along the path to healing.
In my book, I describe my life events in-depth showing my readers how I struggled and learned to heal. My prayer is that it is a book that brings hope by showing how perseverance has led me home to Spirit. I learned that despite my traumas which separated me from Diving Love, Love is always there anyway, waiting on me to say YES!
Perseverance is a powerful word for me and when I meditate on what that means to me, it always brings tears of triumph. You see, shortly after the night I was raped, someone close to me, someone I love dearly, shared the words that all survivors fear: “It was your fault.” I blocked that moment from my mind for so many years, believing it to be true and whenever it would creep back into my mind, I would shut it down…until now. I realize now how hard I persevered to get to where I am today and have made the choice to stop running.
Perseverance has brought me to my purpose and why I do what I do now. Why I write, coach and speak. It is to help others make that first step to choose to live with joy again and to choose joy again and again and AGAIN. To choose its blessings and rewards, even though some days will be SO hard. I want to help people connect to their Higher Power, to the powerful Love of Spirit that brings us to a new place in life. I want to help others troubled by abuse, neglect, loss and trauma understand how the cycles of memories don’t disappear, but can be transformed each and every time they emerge.
“This is the renewal of life. Every day is a choice. And I chose joy!”
I am a Joy Coach and writer because it is who I am. It is how I choose to live and it is the gift my precious son gave me. He gave me the opportunity to choose life again and to take back my JOY!
Rest easy my sweet boy in the peaceful Kingdom of Heaven.